Thursday, May 22, 2014

Life Lately

This post has been a bit delayed because I didn't quite know how to bring it up.  Normally I'd leave a paragraph or two in an outfit post for some personal stuff but I've decided to give this a post of it's own.  So what's the big deal?  After some long thought and lots of conversations with Kevin, I've decided to become a stay at home mom.

Bianca

It was always the plan to stay home as long as our finances were in line.  The thing was, I started feeling guilty about it.  I don't know what your personal feelings are, but I feel like being a stay at home mom kind of has a negative connotation among the feminist culture of today.  Until I became a mom I was very independent.  I pride myself for going through school and excelling in a difficult job.  At that time I wasn't even thinking about a family but I knew I'd be willing to give it up for my child.

Bianca

When the time came to make a decision, I tried to make things work.  Maybe work twice a week?  Unfortunately, we don't have a designated person who could watch her those days.  I know I'm overprotective (and for personal reasons I know I should be) but I don't want her to go to a daycare or an unknown caretaker when she's this small.  If something bad is happening, she's just not old enough to tell me.  I also wanted to be present for every milestone.  I just know I'd be crushed if I missed her first word or first steps while I was working.  So the answer was clear: I was staying home.

Bianca

I was scared at first.  Mostly because we've never lived off one income.  It's not even the fear of not having enough money (we live well within our means and my income doesn't need to be supplemented) but the idea of having someone else cover my share of the household.  I've always handled my own bills, so it's really odd to have Kevin pay for mine.  I know we're married and such, but I've never given anybody my complete trust in everything.  I almost feel bad!  I know it's stupid but it was almost like exposing myself in a way I've never done before.  Thankfully we live debt free and I don't have any crazy bills that I've been hiding :).

Bianca

So I'm starting a whole new journey in my life.  It's kind of weird but still a lot of work!  Staying home with a baby isn't all soap operas and bonbons.  It's making sure my baby is happy, learning new things, keeping her entertained (that part is hard!), and taking care of our dogs and our home.  It's a work shift that doesn't pay and truly never ends.  I'm on call 24/7!  It's the ultimate sacrifice but something I was more than willing to do when I knew I was having a sweet little baby :).

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xoxo

Ashley

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