![Vintage 50s Black and White Check Gingham Chiffon Party Dress](https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4724/39976974711_fb18ecc67d_o.jpg)
I can't believe how long it's been since I've worn something from my vintage closet! I have quite a vast vintage section but I tend to keep them hidden away. Probably in fear that I'll rip or ruin it. And let me be brutally honest: I'd gained about 5 pounds so I've been scared to put my valued pretties on. I took these pictures about a month ago and I've since worked those excess pounds off, but it was quite a journey to get back to my normal self. Disclaimer: I talk about dieting/weight loss/depression in this post.
![Vintage 50s Black and White Check Gingham Chiffon Party Dress](https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4713/39976975351_658cd6f9e6_o.jpg)
![Vintage 50s Black and White Check Gingham Chiffon Party Dress](https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4628/39945727552_d267dd9761_o.jpg)
![Vintage 50s Black and White Check Gingham Chiffon Party Dress](https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4673/39945727142_3a4805d3a7_o.jpg)
![Vintage 50s Black and White Check Gingham Chiffon Party Dress](https://farm5.staticflickr.com/4749/39976975671_d0ae8af947_o.jpg)
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Shoes- Remix Vintage Shoes
Fascinator- Vintage
Lipstick- Vinyl Cosmetics Thunder Kiss Liquid Lipstick in Miss World
Back in September I lost one of my dogs. I was destroyed. I didn't even really know how to get a grip on my everyday life. So I just stopped caring... about everything. I didn't want to be around my dogs, my family, my friends. So I did what I usually do when I'm lonely: I ate my feelings. Once my heart started to heal I realized the havoc I created on my body. I was embarrassed it even came to that point. Now don't get me wrong, I know everyone's health journey is different. But as someone who has always been conscious of what I put into my body, I had done a lot of damage to myself. Thankfully, I learned how to deal with my pain in a healthy way and I started feeling motivated again. I've been using the Lose It! app on my phone and it's been such a great source of motivation for me. It keeps me accountable and inspires me to make better choices when I eat, no matter how I'm feeling.
I sat on these pictures for so long because I was ashamed with how I treated myself. But you know what? I feel like I just need to own this part of my life. I was in a dark place and I didn't know how to deal with it or make it any better. Thanks to some long talks with some of my closest friends, I was able to break through and get my life back on track. I'm so thankful for those who cared enough to check in and open up my heart, I feel like I'd still be searching for peace without them. So here's to looking forward and looking up, no matter what happens in my life.
xoxo
Ashley