Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Changing Tides

Vintage Watercolor dress

It's been so tough getting out to take outfit pictures lately.  Bianca and I were sick over the holidays (she unfortunately still is) and now I'm weaning her off breastfeeding so she has been a beast.  It's obviously much easier for me to get out in my backyard for a few minutes to snap a couple of pictures, but I'm staying true to my word by refusing to be lazy about these posts.  Once I start to feel pressure about posting, blogging stops being fun.  So I'm just getting out when I can and posting the next day.

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Dress- Vintage (remixed)
Shoes- Modcloth
Petticoat- Unique Vintage
Cardigan- New York & Co.

I really couldn't wait to wear this dress again!  I originally borrowed it from Rachel when she was a member of Flock Together.  It's such a beautiful vintage piece and I had a very hard time sending it back.  She happened to list it on her store last year and I snagged it up.  Unfortunately, my body was still recovering from having Bianca and it didn't even zip up.  I was devastated.  Like most people, my body just needed time and now it fits like a glove.

I don't ever think I'll have the words to explain how down I was on my postpartum self.  While I understood why my body had changed, I didn't want to accept it.  As vain and stupid as it sounds, I really hated myself and my body at that time.  Eventually my hormones regulated and I regained my confidence.  And once my confidence was back, the weight seemed to drop off on its own.  I had the most desirable labor and delivery but nothing could prepare me for the darkness of postpartum depression.  I feel like more mothers need to talk about it!

xoxo

Ashley
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