Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Changing Tides

Vintage Watercolor dress

It's been so tough getting out to take outfit pictures lately.  Bianca and I were sick over the holidays (she unfortunately still is) and now I'm weaning her off breastfeeding so she has been a beast.  It's obviously much easier for me to get out in my backyard for a few minutes to snap a couple of pictures, but I'm staying true to my word by refusing to be lazy about these posts.  Once I start to feel pressure about posting, blogging stops being fun.  So I'm just getting out when I can and posting the next day.

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Vintage Watercolor dress

Dress- Vintage (remixed)
Shoes- Modcloth
Petticoat- Unique Vintage
Cardigan- New York & Co.

I really couldn't wait to wear this dress again!  I originally borrowed it from Rachel when she was a member of Flock Together.  It's such a beautiful vintage piece and I had a very hard time sending it back.  She happened to list it on her store last year and I snagged it up.  Unfortunately, my body was still recovering from having Bianca and it didn't even zip up.  I was devastated.  Like most people, my body just needed time and now it fits like a glove.

I don't ever think I'll have the words to explain how down I was on my postpartum self.  While I understood why my body had changed, I didn't want to accept it.  As vain and stupid as it sounds, I really hated myself and my body at that time.  Eventually my hormones regulated and I regained my confidence.  And once my confidence was back, the weight seemed to drop off on its own.  I had the most desirable labor and delivery but nothing could prepare me for the darkness of postpartum depression.  I feel like more mothers need to talk about it!

xoxo

Ashley

9 comments:

  1. This dress is so pretty, and I actually would never have guessed it was vintage! I'm normally so drawn to pastels on you, but I really love these rich tones! I'm finding it hard to be motivated on the photo front myself... it's -4 degrees here today (for real) and all I want to do is stay in bed.

    xox Sammi

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  2. My biggest fear about having kids is getting postpartum depression. Hearing you talk about how you made it through it is helpful though :) And girl, you are rocking that dress! It seriously fits you perfectly!

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  3. So beautiful! And I am obsessed with your hair.

    http://www.thecharleygirl.com/

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  4. Gorgeous dress, I used to have one kinda like it, same colours but it was hearts printed and didn't have that lovely waist detail. It can be strange to have your body change on you. I became ill 12 years ago and have almost doubled in size. i was really unhappy about that for a while, but eventually came to accept it. It's still hard, of course I'd like to walk into a shop and pick anything up and fit it, but I'm just trying to be thankful for having a body that (sometimes) works and am caring less about what it looks like.

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  5. This dress was made for you! I think there's nothing wrong with backyard posts! I wish my backyard was nicer so that I could utilize it. But it's just not appealing. Though when I'm lazy, I use the street and I feel like they look really bad. So, I guess I get it. Anyways, I remember thinking (did you mention it before?) that you seemed really unhappy with your body and it made me sad (but I understood it completely) because no matter what you've always been a super mega babe and I think existing online probably didn't make that any easier for you. I think talking about depression (post-pregnancy) or not needs to be talked about more. I really appreciate and value how open you've been about life and its ups and downs since you got pregnant with Bianca. I think your blogging got way more honest and it's really interesting to me (as a non-mother and a friend) to see someone be so real and upfront. Also I still want your hair.

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  6. I love your photos, just beautiful! That dress, looks awesome on you lovely! xo
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  7. Oh, wow. That dress! It fits so perfect and is so adorable!

    This was such an honest post and really all your posts about motherhood have been; it has been eye opening and that information is definitely being of processed as we plan out adding to own family...

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  8. There are a lot of emotions post-baby....I definitely battled the body hatred....it just takes time...and some sort of workout or eating dedication...which I really didn't want to bother with...hahaha

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  9. That dress is absolutely gorgeous, how perfect!

    xoxo,
    Laura
    http://lauraisthriftingthroughlife.blogspot.com/

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