I can't believe how long it's been since I've worn something from my vintage closet! I have quite a vast vintage section but I tend to keep them hidden away. Probably in fear that I'll rip or ruin it. And let me be brutally honest: I'd gained about 5 pounds so I've been scared to put my valued pretties on. I took these pictures about a month ago and I've since worked those excess pounds off, but it was quite a journey to get back to my normal self. Disclaimer: I talk about dieting/weight loss/depression in this post.
Shoes- Remix Vintage Shoes
Fascinator- Vintage
Lipstick- Vinyl Cosmetics Thunder Kiss Liquid Lipstick in Miss World
Back in September I lost one of my dogs. I was destroyed. I didn't even really know how to get a grip on my everyday life. So I just stopped caring... about everything. I didn't want to be around my dogs, my family, my friends. So I did what I usually do when I'm lonely: I ate my feelings. Once my heart started to heal I realized the havoc I created on my body. I was embarrassed it even came to that point. Now don't get me wrong, I know everyone's health journey is different. But as someone who has always been conscious of what I put into my body, I had done a lot of damage to myself. Thankfully, I learned how to deal with my pain in a healthy way and I started feeling motivated again. I've been using the Lose It! app on my phone and it's been such a great source of motivation for me. It keeps me accountable and inspires me to make better choices when I eat, no matter how I'm feeling.
I sat on these pictures for so long because I was ashamed with how I treated myself. But you know what? I feel like I just need to own this part of my life. I was in a dark place and I didn't know how to deal with it or make it any better. Thanks to some long talks with some of my closest friends, I was able to break through and get my life back on track. I'm so thankful for those who cared enough to check in and open up my heart, I feel like I'd still be searching for peace without them. So here's to looking forward and looking up, no matter what happens in my life.
xoxo
Ashley
I love you! And believe me, I relate to this a LOT. I've gained a lot of weight over the past couple of years due to eating my feelings (I think we have that + shopping as our two vices). Although I know five pounds would probably never be noticeable to anyone but you, I totally understand how it feels like you're at war with your body and it's really difficult to get out of that hole once you get in it. I'm definitely still down there. I'm definitely not taking care of myself and I want to do better, but finding the motivation is hard. I'm just glad that you're feeling more like yourself again <3
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